Who am I?

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

These lyrics from Casting Crowns have been playing through my head today...and I've been focusing on the title/theme of "who am I?" As I was lying (on my left side!) in bed last night, with contractions every few minutes for several hours, I was worrying about the baby...willing it to stay inside a few more hours...days...weeks...so it would "have a better chance." As I was praying yet again, begging the Lord to stop the contractions...this song title popped into my head and I heard the question "Who am I? Am I limited to your womb?" That really made me think as I started to recall these lyrics, and then think about all the miraculous things the Lord has done in my life, and the lives of my family and friends. Then it made me think..."Hmm, Lord...right...who are you? and better yet...who am I to try to limit you to my womb?" I mean...we're talking about the Creator of the Universe here! Daily I'm amazed at the world in which we live: I'm blown away by the awesomeness of God's creativity and design as I watch my son grow and learn, as I examine the intricacies of nature, and now as I yet again experience the power of prayer and support of Christ's church through the many wonderful family and friends that Andy and I are so blessed to have.

In my limited human experience, babies are "knit together in my mother's womb" for 40 weeks, plus or minus a few days. But just because that's what I'm used to...how God created for that process to normally occur...doesn't mean that's the only way He can bring a child into this world. How limiting of me to think that the baby is better off staying inside me. I can't see the future, and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God can do anything. He is all powerful and all knowing. As I thought throgh all this and begin to relax, as my back quit hurting and the contraction stopped and I drifted off to sleep, I was completely overwhelmed with the peace of God which truly does surpass all understanding. He is here. He is with me, and He loves this little one more than I do...he knows everything about it - the things I can only guess at and hope for. Whether in my womb, or a clear plastic box in a little room in TN, God is not limited to what He can accomplish through and for this precious gift we're expecting. Praise the Lord!!!!! And praise Him that he hears us in all cirumstances, and despite our weaknesses and doubts, is ready, willing and loning to shed His love and comfort and peace upon us, calmly reassuring us and reminds us "Who am I?"

I pray he blesses each of you as much as he has blessed me today, and that this post provides opportunity to reflect upon who God is to you.

Love and Peace,
Rachel